Jesus Take the wheel

Having a relationship with God can be extremely tough. What did the tag line of Precious say? We are all Precious. Life is hard. Life is short. Life is painful. Life is rich. Life is....Precious.

This is why I encourage people to read Tyler Perry's messages and blogs. He says it a million times better than I do. I'll explain. I understand. God chose me to carry on some kind of mission. He also chose Tyler. Read his childhood story, it will blow you away.

haha I was going to quote some things he said earlier I went to my email Then, he just wrote another message Lol. I'll read it and see.

Okay, he's going on tour again and the show will be "Madea's Big Happy Family". haha I'll get back to you because some things are missing here and it's his job to announce it.

I hate you

Right now I'm going through a torture you wouldn't understand. Yes, I'm me but I'm not alone. I'm angry at God because I can't figure out why this is happening to me. I can usually figure out the lesson but I can't now. I'm being protected at the moment so I don't kill myself. Do I want to? No. Does the freak (demon) beside me want to? Yes. It's times like these I wish I didn't give my life to God. It's too hard and too painful (I know I'll regret saying this later on). How do I feel at the moment? I want to die, I hate myself, I wanna cause trouble, I also want to rip it to shreds but can't since I'm dealing with something dark and supernatural. This is hell. I'm pissed off and freaked out. God won't do anything about it. I prayed, yes. This demon wants me to tell you all that God isn't real or compassionate but that's not true. I was chosen for some plan and I do NOT want to be the next emily rose. I'd rather die. Sorry God, but this is too much to handle.

wassup?? wassup??

God got at me again. It's 2AM. I was feeling horrible and just went what's going on now? I'm surprised I didn't wake the whole house up going "JESUSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!" He wanted me to do something I didn't know. After that every time I thought of Tyler perry or he was put in my head, I'd freak out o_O. I just asked "please tell me what's going on" so of course, I gotta listen to Him. I was led to his page, to his message board and hesitated. God reminded me "who cares what man thinks?" so I wrote what he wanted me to write. The bad feeling went away after that. Thank God, Tyler hears God too lol.

My Darkest Hour

I've been tweeting about how Jesus Christ saved me. Yes, He did....again. He's so compassionate because if I were Him, I'd get rid of me long ago lol. So...this is kind of heavy but I have to share whatever God shows me.

It started around midnight. I fell into the deepest depression ever. I was so sick of my life I was thinking about overdosing. Everything was dark and foggy. God was trying to get my attention (we have a crazy bond...have since I was 16) but I pushed Him away. It just kept getting worse so I looked around for anything else. I tried everything else but was still depressed.

Someone told me to just pour my heart out to Jesus and he'd come. Okay, I should know this by now. I'm too stubborn, I swear. At about 4AM I couldn't take it so I did pour everything out to Him while listening to "Step Aside". I was praying then I slowly broke down. I had no energy left.

So, did He save me? Of course. I'm sitting here typing this, praising Him and full of peace. I'm not depressed or scared anymore. I want to live again, try again. Sometimes God has to get you to a "painful" situation in order to get your attention. He's compassionate beyond anyone's understanding. I know a lot of people think He's mean or "why is [insert complaint here] happening to me?" well, chances are you did it to yourself.

I don't understand how anyone can live without Jesus. I'd die!! Man ruined everything it's never God's fault. He gave us this world to take care of and man trashed it. He's very kind but I think that makes him kinda sad that man is destroying the rain forests, animals, your life, my life, everything! Like if someone gave you a beautiful gift and you just throw it on the floor and it shatters into a million pieces. He died for you, suffered for you so believing in him isn't much to ask.

I've seen and heard a lot of things. I have no doubt what so ever that He is real. He's showed me miracles, taught me lessons and that's why I'm more humble today than ever. Before age 16 I was everyone's worst nightmare. I told God to take my life and use it since I was done, and He did. I didn't mean it!! lol it's not always fun but it can be rewarding. He wants you to talk to Him. He's patient, and He's waiting.

Precious

This movie was powerful. Monique, Mariah, Gabby Sidibe, and Paula Patton are incredible actresses. So my personal opinion? It's very heavy. Extremely emotional. There were many people in the theatre crying and some sobbing. I was thinking maybe this took them back to a dark childhood.
Some of reminded me of mine but I got rid of that saying "it's over, and it won't happen again". Well, you're never really over abuse but it's easier if you can handle it the right way.
Tyler Perry put in his blog "rated RRRRRRRRRRR". Yeah, he's right lol.

He said it better:

"Okay, I want all of you to know that PRECIOUS is Rated R. RATED RRRRRRR!! (for strong language, sexual content and soooo on) RATED RRRRR!!! This ain't no MADEA movie....LOL. Don't come out of the theater after seeing it saying, "Why didn't Tyler warn us?" HERE IS YOUR WARNING! Pass this on please...

This is not a TYLER PERRY BRANDED MOVIE. I did not write it, I'm not in it, I did not direct it. I want you to know that the language and subject matter are rough.

Some of you may say, "Then Tyler, why are you involved with it?" Glad you asked. It's certainly not for money, because I haven't gotten a dime, nor will I. Anything I make, 100% is going to charity. With that said, it brings me to my reason for wanting to get the word out about this film. One word - POWERFUL! People think that this does not happen and these people don't exist. Not true! This is the most REAL film I've ever seen on this subject matter.

Seeing it, I realized that I was watching a lot of my childhood played out in front of my eyes, and by the end of the movie I was filled with so many emotions. When I sorted them all out, the one that stood out the most was Gratitude! I had to thank God that I made it through. I know, for a fact, that if you have been through anything like this, by the end of this film you will have a flood of emotions. I hope you leave feeling the same gratitude I did, thanking God you made it through. For those of you who haven't been through anything like this, I hope that you still have that level of gratitude...being thankful for the parents you were born to, and also that it will make you want to reach out and help some child. There are Preciouses everywhere. One word can make a difference in their lives. Believe me, I know about that one word.

Thanks. Talk soon.

TP"




WARNING SPOILERS:

If you want to know how intense it was (since I saw someone have a panic attack). In the movie, there is abuse, rape, baby dropping (literally yes).

Life is hard. Life is short. Life is painful. Life is rich. Life is....Precious.