I looked Death in the eye. Now I'm on sedatives

So yesterday was very busy. Every morning I have to take Clonazapam, Buspar and another anti anxiety that changed capsules so... o_O.
I have sleep paralysis RARELY but I had an episode. Once it was over I was so tired I had another severe episode (if you don't know these are terrifying). So I spent most of Sunday passed out.
Someone woke me up at 10 and I "OMG I need to get ready!!" I was stopped and told that it was 10PM not AM when I saw how dark it was outside I went into shock. I went on to speak (pubic speaking) which was dumb. I tapped my friend (who also speaks) on the shoulder and said "please help me" I felt horrible. I was later admitted. They were afraid I might have brain damaged so I was admitted. I don't remember much but it felt like someone hit me in the face with a brick. I had forgotten to take my medication that morning. THAT WAS WHY ALL THIS CRAP WAS GOING ON! I've never had so much anxiety.
Being on painkillers and some other crap can make you run your mouth lol. Apparently I said a lot.
I'm fine, no "brain damage" doctors can be so dumb. God makes that decision not you. I made it through. I may be shaken up but I made it through.

I would like to do more public speaking around different places. I basically tell my story. I think it's sad that "criminals" have to do it for punishment. I hate that. You should be humbled that you might have touched someone.

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